So baby Girl's dual, repeated ear infections have cleared up. Today during her follow up visit, her pediatrician told me to stay out of the sun, repeatedly. Repeatedly, I retorted. He said "You're to self-assured". HAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAA! But, I thanked him for his concern. :)
Saturday late night a young gentleman asked me if I was an athlete. Our age difference is too large for him to have been hitting on me. I told him the truth; I was a dancer and a cheerleader but not a competitive athlete. But, I thanked him for the compliment.
I have had the privilege of making life choices based on love forever. According to Maslow's hierarchy that's a privilege. That means at least my belly is full and I am safe. I loved myself first and acted only for myself for way too long. For the past 10 years I have been drowning myself trying to make the focus of my love different men; not at the same time thank you. This is like a cyber thank you to the loved ones in my life; past and present for all of the lessons I have learned. Now the focus of my love is my daughter.
Children are a gift that will change your life. The pediatrician said "They'll make you more serious." Maybe so but I already take myself way too seriously. The one lesson I have to keep re-learning, because I am stubborn, is thankfully the simplest to enjoy; I am not in control here. This is the lesson that keeps me humble. No need to worry or be afraid of what's happened, what is happening or what is going to happen. Sweet! Peace. And to think I was wanting to be out of control anyway for the while before I got preggo. WHAT.A.RELIEF! This realization IS the answer to my prayers. I hope that I'm doing whatever I'm (not) supposed to be doing well enough ;)