So I have anew colleague at work which is.totally.awesome. I have someone to talk to during the day now which may be why I have less to post and/or write about. He landed in lab as one of my best friends transitioned out of lab and onto the job.of.her.dreams in the far hinterlands.
So I am brainstorming trying to think of something to write about. It's not Wed so I can't just throw up a photo. It's not Thu so I can't ramble about what I'm thankful for. I could turn to music or the weather or the animals or my daughter or pending-ex-husband (see yesterday's post) but eh. I could write about food or bevies or nothing at all.
But I want to write something. I want to write about sitting outside yesterday, basking in the sun, listening to music in my rhinestoned leopard-print bikini for 6 hours. It.was.heaven. And then I went to dinner ALONE and sat outside and stared at the Catalinas as someone else served my dinner to me! Yes! I had a mommy's day off and it was about appreciating and enjoying the little things. Like getting to turn all the AC vents onto myself rather than sacrifice airflow for the backseat :) Like getting to CRANK up my stereo all the way and ride with the sunroof open without a care for anyone else's hearing or skin, or long-term damage to any of the above! It was about ordering lunch at Subway without a concern for what I can share easily and should I get banana peppers or not. It was about getting to close my eyes for real. It was about going to the bathroom and using the toilet alone. It was about not listening for my child's voice; I think I have grown an extra brain lobe specifically for this task. It was about allowing myself to think freely without wondering how to narrate every situation for a 21-month old to understand. A sensory semi-deprivation. I'll be honest, it was great! And relaxing. But I thought about her almost every minute and I missed her voice and smile and hugs with those skinny arms.
It was refreshing to recharge.
Speaking of, I have had a glass of red wine the past few nights. Delicious! Something must be up with the flora b/c my stomach has been kind of a nervous mess. It's probably the pending changes. Psychosomatic; I'm digesting things. Hmph.
Additionally, if I am recharging, from where is this energy coming? Is the universe a closed system? Isn't it cool to think that fat is stored energy in the form of useable carbons? Yes, I am embracing full nerd-dom here!